So I have not been a diligent blogger for many reasons, but there is one reason that has overwhelmed me the most since I started my position as youth leader at my church. My pride is a terrible issue in my life right now. The other day I had to take a cold hard look in the mirror and say that I have no idea what I am doing apart of what I have already experienced. Really, I have no idea what I am doing. It is the most beautiful place I could be.
Where it stands right now, I have the influence to create a whole new structure for our student ministries. I really do know that with some work that we can form something powerful at my church and be a force for the Gospel in our community. But is it really my role to head this up in the first place? I do not believe so. The Holy Spirit needs to be in charge. Any structure needs to flow with the Spirit, otherwise I am essentially going against God and not with him. I have to be lead by the Spirit in order to follow the will of God. The beauty of the trinity is that it all works together like a symphony playing in tune with each other. I think this is the first time in my life that I have ever truly felt that I need to be fully lead by the Spirit. It a feeling like I am relaxing in a field on a beautiful day with no sound in the air. I know that everything is going to be alright, but I'm moving forward and taking steps to seek the will of God more and more.
I also need to have a heart to reach the lost. Even deeper than that, I need to have a heart like Jesus. Actually, I think it goes even beyond that; I need to be one with Christ. My life has to be such that every action I take, every thought I have, every nuance of my being needs to be aligned with Christ. I'm nothing if i don't even smell like Christ. I am nothing apart from the one who has saved me. Part of who Christ is, is that he loves those who are lost. Lost seems to be negative in a lot of ways. But I'm beginning to see that there is a lot of hope for those who are lost. There is a way. There has to be! If there is not then I'm toast. I know that God is developing an urgency in my life to reach the lost. Right now its just like scraping off old paint on a house. Sometimes the old paint just falls off with little effort. Its the stuff that doesn't fall off right away that it where we stumble. I just need to keep running the race as if I have a finish line to cross.
I'm want to do it Gods way, but I am seeking out how. If you happen to read this and think that you can help, please comment on this post. Or send me an email upon request and I will be sure to get back to you as soon as I get it. I need help and looking for God and his children to help me.
May the devil be far away from our efforts and may Jesus be the King of our ministries.
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